My husband and I lost our baby boy at 21 weeks in February to an umbilical cord accident and missed miscarriage. It has hit us both pretty hard and we are definitely not entirely over it as many can understand.

Mother's Day was something I was truly dreading ever since I found out our baby didn't have a heartbeat. Surprisingly, I handled the day quite well until my brother in law and his finacee announced that they are 15 weeks pregnant.. An enormous amount of hurt and sadness took over me and I'm still an anxious mess over it. I've been feeling so miserable and its so hard for me to feel happy for them. The thing that also hurts is that they have only been together for a year, she has a daughter from a previous relationship, and then they rushed to get engaged in March (after finding out they're pregnant I suppose). I just feel so cheated because I'm married to my husband and we have been together for almost 6 years. We were/are the ones who are technically more ready for children. I know I can't control the situation, but I feel extra hurt that they conceived around the time we lost our baby. I can't help but feel some anger towards them too. My brother in law is the type that is competitive and constantly tries to be the center of attention so I'm also questioning whether this whole thing was planned in a way (I hope not though). In the past, he felt jealous/left out during our wedding and our pregnancy announcement because his family was giving us some extra attention. He honestly is pretty spoiled and it can be quite annoying since my husband and I don't compete nor try to win others over 😕

It's just also saddening because I'm now afraid his family will forget the grandson (our baby) that we lost since my brother in law is welcoming a new baby into the family.

Any advice for me on how to deal with this? I feel as if my heart has been ripped out and stomped on. 😕😔💔