Throw in my face?

It's sad when I'm in a relationship every person has to hurt me during an argument. Like I know I can't have kids from the looks of it. My ex for 10 years every argument always gotta say you can't have kids and now my new boyfriend for a year says it to me. It hurts so bad. I want a baby so bad and from this app I gained hope but when you hear it from someone you think loves you that supposed to have hope with you. I just wanna die at times from depression God will never bring me a baby