Crying and feel a little silly

So I am getting induced in three weeks (FTM) and I am a little ocd and have to know what to expect before anything in life happens (crazy I know). So I started watching induction and birth stories on YouTube. Every time those ladies start pushing I start crying.... I think I am a little scared.... Then they get their baby plopped on them and I ball like a baby! My hormones are a little out of whack maybe???