Scarred for life

Last night my boyfriend and I tried to get intament. This was the first time in a long for me, first things were going well. Then he flipped me onto my stomach and got me from behind. I started having a panic attack, because that's how I was raped. I screamed stop and almost started to cry. I will never forget the look on his face when I told him what had happened to me. And instead of thinking of himself and starting again, he asked me what I wanted. So we cuddled and talked all night. I hate that I will never be able to do somethings all because of one mans decision to take advantage of me. I am truly scarred for life but I am strong.