Feeling discouraged. I know I'm not the only one.

I've had three positive OPKs this month on the 3rd/CD9 (solid smiley on CBE), the 8th/CD14 and 11th/CD17 (FRER lines). 

Only got to DTD on the 1st, 12th and 14th because of Hubby traveling for work.  So as you can see there's a very good chance we couldn't hit the O time, especially since I have no clue when or if it actually happened. Hubby travels so much I feel like I'm never going to have a chance. I've been POAS like crazy in hopes that my O was actually on the 4th or 5th and the swimmers from the 1st were very slow and somehow made it in. But only BFNs so far. I know that is a HUGE long shot. I'm so frustrated and discouraged. I don't even know if Hubby's travel schedule will lighten up anytime soon. He usually knows about a week in advance if he's traveling. I feel like if he could have two or three straight months without traveling we could actually have a slight chance. 

Ladies, I need some encouragement. Just putting it out there. I really can't talk to anyone else about this, other than a good friend that recently had to have a hysterectomy because of a tumor. She wanted more kids for a long time and now she can't. I don't want to pour salt in her wounds by talking about my fertility issues.

I know I could be worse off by being in the same situation as she is but I just can't shake these feelings.

Thank you for reading my rant. Feel free to join in the ranting.

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