Tomorrow I'm taking my 4th flight ever and it's only 2 hrs but honestly heights still scare the crap out of me regardless. Last flight,I nearly passed out in my seat. It was raining horribly and thunder came super close to the plane and it was dark. I need help or suggestions. I tried music but basically all my music has trigger words lol. Any suggestions?

Update:I started shaking really bad when my group was called to board the plan. Literally screamed during take off and couldn't move the whole 3 hrs. I was ok as soon as we state descending and I was completely fine. Lol probably won't be flying for awhile. Thanks everyone!