Hello, I'm new to the group but I wanted to introduce myself..

I'm April 17th my family unexpectedly lost my brother. I mean this was extremely unexpected, as I love an hour away from "home" (moved away for college, never went back) and I had JUST spent time with my brother at a family BBQ the day before. All I can think of is that dreadful call late Sunday night. I screamed and screamed and was inconsolable. Then the funeral was even more tough.. I'm going to miss my brother. 32 years old..😭😭

Then.. I go to the OBGYN for a standard ultrasound on April 21st and find out that within two days (or less) of the ultrasound I lost my baby.. No heartbeat. The PAIN I feel is so unreal. In the back of my head I was telling myself.. "Well, at least I have my miracle baby on the way" after trying for 2, almost 3 years! I just couldn't believe what they were telling me.. But I saw the look on the radiologist technicians face.. And it was a horrible, dreadful look..😭😭 my baby was gone. 

I've been off of work for the last two weeks, since all these events have happened- and I honestly don't feel prepared to go back.. But I also feel like maybe it'll help take my mind off of things. 

I gave myself misoprostal (sp?) to flush my body of products of conception and bled and bled and bled.. Then I saw baby 😭😭😭 we were asked to keep it so that pathology can test it.

It's just been a really tough two weeks. 😭😭