I love my little guy so much. I'm so happy he's healthy and here, but no one tells you how much the first two weeks suck.

Issues with feeding, learning to identify his cries, broken sleep. Between 3am and 9am I find myself doubting my mommy abilities!

Everyone says "aren't you loving it?" And then I feel guilty cause I should love it.

I love him, just not this stage! I am just trying to enjoy all the little moments, like him learning to smile.

I miss being pregnant when he was safe inside, and bees, too much sun, and germy hands didn't give me a panic attack!

Please tell me I'm not alone!