Mildly freaking out.
I had a miscarriage several months ago. Baby stopped developing at six weeks, but my body never recognized that, there were all sorts of strange events that prevented my doctor from being 100% sure and finally at ten weeks I had to have a medical miscarriage to get my body to expel it. All in all it was more than a little traumatizing. Now I'm preggers again and I'm super consumed with the feeling that it's going to happen all over again. My doctor told me to see her as soon as I had a positive pregnancy test so hopefully I can get in this week and have some of my fears assuaged. Hopefully I'll be able to stick around in the group till January!