Just need some support..

Kathy

So, as a child I was raped by my older brother for a year. Now as an adult I am working on forgiveness and part of that is using the room it used to happen in as my bedroom with my SO. I've come a long way, but I still struggle with the memories.

I just panicked while my SO is napping because our cats were snuggled into me and my SO was beside me and I couldnt get up. But I wriggled my way out and I feel kinda bad. Am I awful?