4 days late...don't want to test yet scared to get bfn

Jessica
Af was supposed to come 5/19, no sign of her yet. Checked my cervix this morning too and it's pretty high and closed, normally right before af it's low, open and soft. Just so scared to test but don't know how much longer I should wait. This is our 10th cycle ttc and just so tired of seeing all the bfns every month :(