controlling : 

he's very clingy and feels like he has to see me every single day. when I already have plans and say no he makes me feel bad. for instance, I planned on going to the gym today after work and he told me to just go beforehand. I told him no & I wanted to go tonight and he said "you never wanna see me" even though I see him AT LEAST 5 nights out of the week & all weekend. he makes me feel bad when I want alone time and says "why would you wanna be alone when you can be with me?"

when I try leaving when I'm upset he goes to the door and won't let me leave. I beg him to just let me leave before I loose my cool and he won't and says I need to stop acting like a child and just listen to him. 

also, he went to a club over spring break behind my back and lied about it. I didn't go behind his back because obviously relationships have some restrictions. he went two nights in a row and lied about it. I am going to Florida win my friend over summer and mentioned going to a club and he's like "guys are so much worse than girls! ur gonna be dancing on guys! you're only doing this out of spite!" when I told him I'd only be dancing w my friend he told me I'd be the worse one even tho he lied to me about it & I said NO to my cousin about going alone because I respected him enough. when I told him how I remembered the situation when he lied he said "how would you know when your memory sucks?" and he says that any time I say I remember something he said or did & use it in an argument 

whenever someone texts me he's like "who ru texting? what are you guys talking about?!" and says I have something to hide if I don't let him always go through my phone. that's not the case, I just like my privacy & I doubt my friends would want him to know about their personal lives. he used to go through my phone all the time while I was sleeping/ even turned on find my iPhone without me knowing so he could

see my location. & got on my Facebook and added his number to it encase I change my PW

he always talks about how terrible my friends are and how he's the only good friend I have in my life. & he uses that whenever I decide to hang out w them.

he gets mad if I drink w my friends(no males around) and says I've changed. (I used to never drink) he tries making me feel like shit if I drink. also, whenever I'm with my friends and not responding he will call me like twice and blow my phone up with texts. even has messaged my friends and sister when I am not responding.

when I tried leaving him he showed up to my apartment and pretended to be maintenance so I'd let him in. then he cried and begged for me and went through my phone and saw I was talking to other guys & blocked all of them, even tho I left him. he turned on find my iPhone and figured out where I was located and assumed I was with some guy even tho I was with my girl friend. he would blow up my phone being super sweet and saying that I'd never find a guy who did the things he did for me & who will love me like he does. he'd tell me he really needed to talk becos he has no one and would expect me to ditch my friends so we can talk. and said I was terrible for leaving him when he's stressed about getting arrested for having so much pot in his car and his grandma was really sick. I told him I could be there as his friend. he'd show up to my work even when he's off  since we work together Friday's to "surprise me", go through my phone & hug all over me even tho I told him we needed time apart. he got on my social media and blocked all the guys I was talking to and even messaged one on my snapchat asking what we talked about and stuff. 

whenever I say no to sex he says "you never wanna have sex" and acts all mad and upset and says I don't want him, even tho we have sex like every day. I let him take videos of us and stuff and when I say no to anal he calls me lame. or calls me lame when I say no to sex 

he also expects us to text all day long or else he gets upset. he also tells me to turn my location on & if I won't then what do I have to hide? I tell him he doesn't need to know where I'm at 24/7 & he said I shouldn't care unless I'm hiding something 

not in love with him:

I don't really want to ever rip his clothes off. may be because we have sex too often. I don't really get butterflies around him anymore. I actually dread seeing him sometimes because I know my day is going to be ruined somehow because he's so argumentative. I can go all day without texting him if he'd allow me to. I look at other guys sometimes and wonder "what if". he annoys me so often even when he's just trying to cuddle. thing is. it kills me inside to think of him with someone else 

we have good times together, don't get me wrong. but I've just started realizing all of this and need opinions