So today I spent the day with my best friend.... My best friend who just so happens to be pregnant. Its her birthday today, so her and I spent the day together. She's 30 weeks along and has her maternity pictures coming up this weekend. So..today's goal was to find her the perfect dress for her special day to have pictures taken. That morning I didn't think about it much and even throughout the day I didn't think much about her "being pregnant". That is until our last store and last shop of the day finally came. We ventured into the Motherhood store..I was so focused on helping her pick out her dress and confirming her that she did in fact, look beautiful in no matter what she put on her bump that when I was alone..in the corner looking through the raks for her as she sat in the fitting room resting her swollen feet, I began to notice where I was and I began to notice the pictures on the walls. The happy couples and the husband's holding the wife's pregnant belly's. I couldn't shake the feeling of disappointment and sadness I had forgotten throughout the course of our day. I know that everyday living with infertility is hard.. Heck its more than hard , but in that moment I felt the true disappointment in my actual surroundings that I had felt in my heart for so long. So as i sit here on the way home from our birthday trip I can't shake my sadness I feel for my soul. As any other time I will take this day by day as long as it takes to get to MY special moment in time where these are MY days and MY pictures for OUR baby.