Pure ugly. (Venting)

I have never felt so unwanted in all my life! Maybe it's just me. Maybe it's because we haven't had sex in a couple of weeks.

Ever since we gave up on trying for a baby (1 year TTC) he hasn't seemed to be interested. I feel like I can't turn him on anymore. This has never happened between us! I have been so depressed and upset. When he tells me he loves me I just don't feel it's meant anymore.. I'm afraid he thinks I'm ugly now..

Maybe I'm just emotional from the blood pouring out of my vagina. Why do I want sex so much more when I'm bleeding! I know the answer but just WHY! Ughhh! Life sucks.