My husband and I have been ttc for about five years with no luck. Last May we had a friend come to us who already had 3 kids and wanted us to adopt her child. She wasn't all that trusting of a person but I wanted a baby so bad that I was all in and hoping and praying it all went through. It was the longest most stressful 5 months of my life. Everything we had planned she went back on. The whole time she reassured me that she still wanted to give the baby to us. She lives like two hours away and was supposed to move here till after the baby was born but she was so into her friends and everything she wouldn't. I couldn't even get her to go to any doctors appointments. Well we had talked to a lawyer about adopting but due to my husband having a couple things that aren't a big deal on his record we are not able to legally adopt or foster. Well that just ripped me apart. So we decided she would just give us the baby and give us temporary custody that would eventually turn into full custody when she signed her rights away. Well the day she went into labor me and my husband were in the room and she even had him cut the cord. By the last day that she was in there after having me take care of the baby and telling me I was the mom and had to get used to it she totally ripped my heart out and decided to keep her. That was the worst day of my life and I cried for three days and many after that if I didn't stay busy. And to this day I have not got to see that baby once and she's 7 months. I am not mad she kept her I am just mad how she went about it and stopped talking to us. So now I would love to adopt but I don't know what else I can do except for someone to just hand over their baby. It sucks so bad when the one thing you want will probably never happen.