Oh man! With #2, I cried and they weren't tears of joy (at first). It took me months to "ok" with being pregnant. You're in such a different place mentality it's so difficult to wrap your head around it. This one I've done much better. Although, I'm still in awe. I think "this is how normal people have babies". (Of course, it doesn't usually happen in their 40's). You "try" and get pregnant. No 20 years between. The best to you and your family! And know, you're not alone. There are several of crazy woman out there....lol