We have a gorgeous 11 week old baby and i love her with all my heart. Ever since i became pregnant, our relationship has started to decline more and more to the point that im not sure if i still love my SO or not. He was not understanding nor sympathetic during my whole pregnancy and after our daughter was born, he never really ties to help even when im practically begging him to help me out a bit because i work weekends and desperately need sleep before i go in. He has no real bond to our daughter and is becoming more distant all the time. Today he told me that he has been "hard core" thinking about cheating on me to the point that he has been looking at different girls to cheat on me with. He told me that im boring and dont want to try anything new but i dont think thats true at all. Every once in a while i wake him up by giving him a blow job and then morning sex but we have to buy lube because he has gotten too lazy to finger me or help me get ready in any way. Its true that a lot of my focus has gone go my little baby but i still try to give him attention but he never tries anything for me. He thinks that just because he is financially supporting us, thats enough. When he told me today about think about cheating on me, all i could think of was that i wish he would just get it over with! Not that it wont hurt me terribly and im also scared of the future because i know i wont stay with him after that and all my family live several States away but sometimes its worse to be constantly anticipating it. Im so scared for it to be over but im so scared to continue this way too because it hurts too much to be treated this way and not know where i stand. Its exhausting

We do have good days when i remember why i love him and we have a good time but then he talks about leaving us or cheating and i just want it all to end. Can someone please give me some advice? What do i do?