HPV (just want to know I'm not alone)!!!

Anybody else dealing with this I was 19 when I found out and now I'm 24 I'm just so devastated If I had never been with my old bf I probably would not have gotten it and it been 3 almost 4 years since I found out about it i should have never gotten with more guys and now I have to have a procedure done where they go deep into your cervix you can see it on the screen and they put a solution that will tell them where the abnormal cells are and then they do biopsy on those cells ? I can't even think straight all I think about is my mistake iguess this is my punishment. ...?