Emotional Wreck

Dominique
 TTC 
Everything seem to be upsetting, I'm not sure if it my birthday coming up soon and we have been trying for so long. We thought we was a couple times hopes was high 😩 but our hearts was broken. I try to keep up a smiling face 🙃 but really I'm hurt! I'm not sure what I'm doing wrong, our what's wrong with me. I don't want to see ungrateful since I have 2 amazing girls from someone else! I would love to have our child. He says he will love us no matter what and I know he will. At the same time would love to have a boy! I just needed to talk I guess get my feelings out there with no judgement and some understanding with what I'm going tho.