Husband just doesnt understand 😭

I don't know, maybe I'm a horrible person for feeling this way, but my son is 3 weeks old & I find myself wondering who the hell wants this for their lives. My husband is gone for work 3.5 days per week so he gets plenty of rest. When he is home he is usually watching sports games in the other room. I'm left to breastfeed the baby CONSTANTLY especially with him cluster feeding right now. Obviously my husband can't feed the baby, that's all my job. The baby won't sleep longer than an hour at a time unless I hold him, which I don't want to do because it's dangerous and I get crappy sleep when I hold him.

I haven't gotten more than 2 hours of sleep per night in 3 weeks, I can't eat because I literally have no time to, I'm perpetually dehydrated and I'm basically running on empty right now.

I told my husband I don't know what makes people want more than one kid and I'm somewhat regretting having him. So now basically I'm a terrible person & I should be ashamed of myself for having these feelings I can't help