You don't really have to read this. I just want to rant a little. I'll be honest, I'm lazy. Something with my anxiety makes me have panic attacks when I have to clean. My house is a mess. Anyway, mess or not, there are ants everywhere. There's flies and earwigs as well. Even in parts of the house where it's clean. It's basically the kitchen and my bedroom that are a mess. On top of that my dogs are driving me insane. They're constantly barking at nothing. I've got horrible head aches lately and good god if I can't get my emotions under control I don't know what I'll do. Also as I've posted before I'm on a sexual hiatus (well my fiancé is but I'm trying to be supportive) but my god did we do that at the worst possible time because I am ridiculously horny this week. I also have an anger problem (runs in the family I'm guessing) but the problem is that lately (about 2 or 3 weeks) when I get angry, my blood pressure bottoms out. I've got heart issues so my blood pressure runs low as it is but it hasn't been noticeable before and it has been lately. I've been under a lot of stress when I shouldn't be.  I'm genuinely really happy with my life but I'm so freaking emotional. I love my fiancé with all my heart, and we're having some financial trouble but we're not poor, just making it by. I've got a great job and volunteering and interning as much as I can. My family is awesome and I'm picking up my new(ish) car tomorrow. But everything has been getting to me lately. Anyway, rant over.