i just got out of an 9 month abusive relationship as of tuesday. i loved him so much.. but i know for my well being i needed to leave. the relationship got beyond unhealthy. i even got a no contact contract for at school even though theres only 3 days left of school. not to mention i work with him as well. i never knew it would be so hard, but also feels like a relief i don't have to be scared anymore. I never have to get disrespected again, pushed around again, look stupid again, i'm dooone with the bullshit i been taking. i have been punched in the face i'm lucky to be alive. i've had bruises on my arms, because he would grab me and pull me. i cry alot now only because i think of the happy memories and i amm thankful fo have had them.. i mean he also took my virginity. and ended up giving me type 2 herpes as well. but i'm thankful to not have had any bad symptoms at all, if i hadn't gone to doctor i probrobly wouldn't have known i gotten it. this relationship changed my life and was probrobly the biggest lesson i've learned. from now on i am not letting no nigga control me. telling me who to talk to, what to wear, what to do when he's not there, be scared to even smile when he's around. let him call me disrespectful names. put his hand on me. no. i am done, i am free. so for anyone going through a similar situation i am always here please come talk go me. remember to put YOURSELF first, love YOURSELF first, because at the end of the day YOU are what matters, not no nigga who claims to love you but treats you like shit more than makes you feel like the queen you are.