As I sit here on the bathroom floor .....

I wonder to test or not to test at 14 dpo. I have had spotting for 3 days in a row. I never spot for that long before AF. It is at most a day before, if at all. I tested at 11 dpo and it was negative. After almost a year of trying, getting so upset the last 3 cycles that I can't help but cry, getting mad that my body isn't doing what I want it to do, I don't no how much more I can handle. I want to love myself again, and every cycle that fails, I feel like I loose a little more of my focus. So I sit here and wonder if I should just test so AF can come and laugh in my face. Then I can pick myself back up, attempt to be positive that anything can happen, and again. Baby dust to all.
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I think it depends a lot on your personality. I personally would test to sort of rip off the band aid fast so I can "get over it" as much as I can sooner. If you think you need more time to come to terms with a negative if that is what you get then wait until tomorrow. I am very sorry you are suffering. You are not alone. Many of us are in the same situation. I hope just knowing that helps a bit. 

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When is AF due? I got a positive on 12dpo with my first pregnancy that ended in a MMC. TTC again.

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Terra • Jun 5, 2016
It's due tomorrow. I know it's coming.