So, i guess you could say i struggle with bulimia. I have for the past 3 years but i dont do it religiously. I probably have a "fit" like 3-5 times a week. Which i know seems like a lot. Everytime i over eat i start to have a panic attack until i make myself puke. I feel like i just ate a bottle of poisen and need to get it out or else ill die. I want to not feel this way anymore. The only person that knows is my husband but he thinks ive stopped. Its getting so bad that i started sneaking it. I go take showers and make myself puke. I want to get help but i dont know how. Do i go to my regular dr? What would they do? I dont want my family finding out! I really need help because im getting really worried for my health... Im not skinny or anything but i want kids and i know this can affect your fertility. Please no hate i just want some advice. Im scared.

(Also, i have a history of servere anxiety)