This is kind of long and I apologize, but I have no idea what to do.

I'm insulin resistant because of my PCOS. I knew that. I have known that for years. My normal ob/gyn put me on metformin years ago to help me manage it and it has worked great. My current OB told me that I should quit taking it because I "don't need it anymore since I'm already pregnant" (she assumed I was on it to help me ovulate, I wasn't) and that it would it make it harder for them to tell if I have gestational diabetes (metformin is safe in pregnancy and is prescribed to help with GD, so this made no sense to me, but I stopped taking it anyway.)

So, naturally, now I have gestational diabetes (or am a candidate for it, which is what the nurse told me. She didn't say I actually have it.) My fasting level in the morning is a little high, and I'm talking only over by a 1-5 points, but the rest of the day it's fine and within normal limits. They make me check my glucose four times a day. My doctor says if I can't get the fasting level down, I'll be considered high risk, will be sent to a high risk doctor and will have to go on medication.

This, to me, doesn't make any sense.

I've asked my doctor and the nutritionist why I couldn't continue/can't just start taking my metformin and the answers they give me go in circles and make no sense. If my medication is safe to use in pregnancy and is in fact prescribed to help with GD, why did they ever take me off of it? Why can't I just start taking it again? I've only gained 3 pounds this entire pregnancy so far at 25 weeks, so I refuse to believe my baby is going to be a huge diabetes baby. He's been perfect, healthy and growing on schedule at every appointment.

I don't want to be sent to the high risk doctor over this and I honestly feel like this is all some kind of mistake. I really want to just start taking my meds again and see if my fasting number goes down (which i'd be willing to bet it would), but I don't want to get yelled at by the doctor or somehow hurt the baby (even though there's no reason to think it would hurt him.)

I'm just SO incredibly frustrated by this entire situation. This is not the pregnancy experience I wanted and with the way things are going, I'm not going to be allowed the birth experience I want either. I just seriously don't understand this at all.

Should I just go back on my medication? This is what my gut is telling me to do. Or should I just keep doing what the doctor says? I'm so lost. What would you do?