anyone else dealing with depression?

I'm 12 weeks and 4 days, and lately I've felt like nothing I do is right, and I've felt awful about not going to college yet and my life being shitty. it doesn't help that I've had depression for 3 years diagnosed, but I can't stay on medication. none of it seems to work, and now that I'm pregnant I don't wanna take any even if it's supposedly okay to. but I'm just in a rut, and I feel like dying a lot. I'm living paycheck to paycheck barely making it by, because work cut my hours from 35 to barely 20 for no reason, and I keep applying for other jobs, and no one has called me back and I'm just miserable. I mean I have good days, but not all the time. idk what to do anymore. I'm at a loss.