I guess I had a misscarriage? (Trigger warning)

Is it possible not to have pain with one? Just lots of bleeding and a huge clot looking thing. Haven't been to the Dr yet. Happened over the weekend.

I've been on birth control for a few months and it makes me not have a period so when I started bleeding (may 28th) I just thought it was a side effect from the pill. I'm still bleeding. It comes and goes.. I have no cramps. I guess I had some yesterday but they were so mild I don't even wanna say I had cramps. And so many people are so sad and everything. I feel nothing about it. I didn't even know I was pregnant.

I had no connection or anything with my first pregnancy last year and it took months for me to really feel anything for my baby afterwards. I know I sound horrible and messed up or whatever. Where other moms and woman feel either instantly attached to their babies, I feel no attachment. At all. It doesn't bother me at all if I had a misscarriage and I know it's a sensitive subject and I'm sure I'll offend anyone who has had one, but I feel no sadness or anything. Maybe I am just mental.

I have no idea.

*To answer how do I know I was pregnant/had a misscarriage?

I'm not a 100% sure. I posted pictures in the period group "***TMI*** what the fugg?" and I also asked friends who have had misscarriages this past year and they have all said miscarriage. Also added the pictures here. Yes I understand it's disgusting. I'm sorry, I just needed advice..

*I have had heavy periods before but I've never bled for going on 3 weeks now..

Of course I won't know 100% until I goto the Dr.

Thank you for the non judgmental comments, I appreciate it.