My boyfriend lied to me about first time - don't know how to feel?

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Okay I don't know what to say or even why I'm writing this I just want some advice or for someone to relate or something. Basically, I'm with my first ever boyfriend -  together 6 months, he's 18 and I'm 17. I had only kissed one guy before & he said he'd kissed 2 people before me. So I've been thinking this whole time that we were each other's first everything, pretty much. We've had sex & oral  everything quite a bit now. I didn't realise it would be, being each other's first was quite a big deal to me and I felt it was quite special. I loved the fact we had this special together nobody else had experienced. Anyway, after much deliberation he admitted to me today over text this wasn't the case. He had given/received a blowjob from a guy a little while before we met. I specifically asked him after we had oral the first time "how far have you been?" and he said, smiling and holding me, "this is the first time I've done anything with anyone". That was a special memory and now it makes me feel sick. It just makes me sick that he lied to me and something that was special to me doesn't even exist. I've told him it's okay but I haven't forgiven him yet for lying, even though I understand he was embarrassed. Agh I don't even know why I'm writing this. I just feel so upset and I'm not sure if it's justified that I feel that way? I don't know what to say to him now.

TLDR: boyfriend lied about me being his first time for oral. I don't know what to do or how to feel.

Please just comment wth your thoughts, if you would be upset, anything.

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Idk why everyone is making it a big deal about how he got it from a guy. It's normal to be bi or just experimental. Saying that it was his *first* time with you, and you took it t heart, is really bad. He shouldn't have lied about something so special and obviously you need some time to get over it. Perhaps take a break and talk to him about it when you're ready. If he's lying about something so serious or special then he'll probably be lying about something in the future or lying already. I should know, I used to lie to my boyfriend all the time and honestly, you should know, it messes up relationships and communication A LOT. You should get that fixed before he makes anymore communication related mistakes. Because everyone knows, a relationship is nothing without communication.

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I really don't know too many guys who would allow another guy to give him a blow job. Either he's bi, was experimenting, or he was raped. The first and last possibilities could be why he was afraid to tell you. I don't see why else he would lie to you unless he's trying to play you. Straight up ask him to explain to you.

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It's perfectly normal to experiment. But yeah he definitely shouldn't have lied. It's normal to forgive but not forget. Take as much time as you need to get past this!

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He got it from a guy? Did you know he liked guys too or did he hide that? He should be told you from the beginning before you did anything