Horrible/amazing delivery

Kelsie
I have a long birth story but I think it's a huge learning experience to share... I was due June 9 with my first started having contractions late evening of the 9 I went to LDR three times over evening of 9, day of 10, evening of 10... each time was told I was 3 cm and contractions were not consistent or strong enough... We walked, had sex, had tea... Did everything we were told but kept getting sent away... I didn't stick up for myself because I didn't understand what I should be feeling my husband ended up taking two extra days off to labor with me... I finally felt beaten down and said I can't take this pain lets get checked June 10 at 7pm made it to LDR had the nurse look at me and think nope she can't be but yup I was between 6-7 cm. everyone handles pain differently don't let them say you don't look like your in enough pain... Saw the doctor and was moved to room with in 15 min... They kept saying if u want a epidural the guy is coming up to do another one next door... He ended up walking in my room
And for conscience I said ok when really I was ok. So got my epidural and nothing no relief he kept saying it was picture perfect I needed to relax well over 40 min no relief... He came back tried again... Nothing. They wouldn't let me get up because of how much freezing they put it but it wasn't working... I ended up with in/out catheter and went to 8-9 cm then pain was bad I kept telling myself it has been almost three days u can do this... And again I let them try for a third time and nothing he said he had never seen this before.. He felt bad so order some fentanyl which I originally had said no too but I felt so tired and they said I could maybe get 15 min to relax so I did... This for me was actually not that bad I made them give me low dose was able to calm down look at my husband and say ok I'm taking this labor back... I then let the doctor break my water.. They put in another catheter because I felt need to push but bladder was full instanley when drained I felt like myself again strong willed and was going to do this unfortunatly I'm not sure why but a potocin drip got started to make my contractions stronger to help me push affectively since I looked to Handle things well.. I pushed two hard hours and got his head to push out numerous times unfortunately he was stuck... I started crying and saying I had no strength my labor had been so long the doctor told me she was going to use forcept and episiotomy just to try... Makes me cry saying this but I new this whole labor no one would listen to me and how I felt and kept saying there is no way your in labor... I refused and demanded c-section... I was going in/ out consciousness from pain couldn't put my left leg down because his head was half there... Finally they listened the anasegiologist came back and said ok I'm giving you a spinal... I lost my shit I feel so bad but there was no way I was letting him poke me for fourth time and have it not work I demanded to be put out... He refused I was so angry/hurting/ I became something I wasn't I was yelling at everyone had to be held down... In the end I was in operating room my husband had to stay out... I remember my delivery doctor yelling with the anasegiologist to just put me out he was thinking he could sit me up to spinal me but my baby's head was half out finally someone on my side... I felt the first cuts because they were not ready to put me out but baby needed out... Woke up later in recovery.. Was told babe was fine but it had been three hours... Although I missed some amazing things the bond my husband got in those three hours was priceless... He was born 2:55 7lb 5 oz and not fully breathing but is healthy. I went into this reading books taking prenatal classes I thought I had a idea of how things would go... I was wrong but my biggest thing is that's ok.. My ideas and opinions have greatly changed and that's ok... My biggest thing I remember people it's your body no one else's don't let people tell u how u should feel or act... A day later I was told by the delivery doctor how sorry she was that I fell threw the cracks and my labor went way way to long started June 9 11pm ended June 11 2:55 am but I got my most amazing gift Myles Asher... Please no negative comments this is just a birth story to share