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I cry because... Sorry I needed to vent to someone

Alondra • Wed, Jun 15

I know hormones make you overly emotional and I wanna do is cry.

I wanna cry because the father of my child is my nephews closest friend and he isn't going to be there and no one knows. I made up a fake name because I didn't want any problems.

I cry because I'm afraid of being a mom at 19.

I cry because until I was around 7 weeks ( once I found out ) I was smoking weed. Once I found out I stopped and got rid of everything. But there are so many times when I just wanna smoke it just one last time just to remember the feeling and being able to eat and keep my food down for once

I cry because I feel like I can't be a mom. That I can't give the life my baby deserves.

I cry because I'm scared of my selfish needs. That I'll be like my sisters who can't find the right love and settle for guys they don't deserve.

I cry because I'm afraid I might not do something with my life. That'll I'll end up like my sister who is in prison and my other sister who is madly in love with her dick head boyfriend who makes her feel horrible about her size but isn't the one who should be talking

I cry because I don't deserve this baby. I don't deserve the love that'll it'll give me. The joy of life.

I cry because I am scared of being a mom, having everything set back a year just to make sure my baby is fed, that my baby learns how to talk and walk.

I cry because I wanted to have the abortion because I felt to weak that I couldn't be a mom

I cry because I hate myself for feeling like this...

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