waiting is killing me!

💞SuE💞 • 39/ TTC#1 4 rounds of clomid at 25mg. 1 round of ivf/fet failed dec16. 2nd round fresh failed 14feb17. fet in april17
It wasn't the two week wait that was as difficult. 
It wasn't the 2 years of trying to conceive that's been as difficult.
Though both have been excruciating.
It's this... being a day late with my period but testing negative everyday this week.
A pregnancy test on 10dpo, 11dpo, 12 dpo and 13dpo all negative.
But reassuringly AF is late... like I wanted it to be. 
Clomid cycle 4 ( last round before <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">ivf</a>) I really want this to be it. Baby danced everyday in the fertile window. 
This will be a painful week. No clue what will happen. So badly want a bfp