Miscarriage- my personal encounter
I have questions. I have emotions that I can't express to anyone because to others in my life it wouldn't matter. However, I need to get this off my chest. I want to know if it's okay to still feel this depressed over this despite my age. Am I acting ridiculous?
I was told when I was 16 I wouldn't ever be able to have children. Unknowingly around the end of December I had become pregnant then in Late February had a miscarriage. It's been so long ago, but it still feels like the other day. The blood, the cramping, the feeling of being scared not knowing what was going on until a doctor told me hours later. Taking out pieces of the placenta that was left to make sure I didn't get sick. I had a life inside of me, something I was told I would never have but what I had always wanted. I feel like I lost my chance, like that was it and I blew it somehow. I know I couldn't handle being a junior in college and working, and a baby right now. But that isn't to say I wouldn't have been a good parent, sometimes I'd like to think that I want a child right now, that I could handle it only because I didn't want to lose the chance I had to become a parent. I honestly get so emotional thinking about it. I've been told I'm overreacting and dragging this out, but I'm still really upset over this. Is that normal? Is what I'm feeling okay, is it okay to still feel this way? I just want to be told it is and that I'll get over it and I'll be fine. But it's been since February and I still get sick and upset just thinking about what could have been.
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