I'm lost

💞SuE💞 • 39/ TTC#1 4 rounds of clomid at 25mg. 1 round of ivf/fet failed dec16. 2nd round fresh failed 14feb17. fet in april17
got my period. I failed. my body failed me. 
fourth round of clomid and at being 3 days late I started to really hope
This has been so hard for me... if I get can through today I'll think about tomorrow