6 days before my AF I got BFN on 9dpo. My period is supposed to come on 19th. I though that I tested early do thats why I got BFN. But now, I feel period pain and Im do depressed cause I know its coming for sure :(

Why me? Always the same..every month..for years! Why am I punished? I hate myself and my body. I hate this. I really had enough..I tried everything, been thru lots of shit, and still nothing :( :( :(

Whats left to do for me? Nobody around me understands cause all of them got pregnant accidentally, so easy.. :( :(