Torn between two... Or stuck??
So I am currently in a relationship, coming up to two years. However, I have (out of my control) met someone through college who I have discovered feelings for, which I have found to be mutual as well.
I feel an instant connection through chemistry with this new chap, which I don't feel, or have never felt with my man now. But I have built a foundation with my man, trust, home life etc. things moved super super fast with us though - we had been dating for about 2-4 weeks before moving in together. At times, I have had doubts about moving so quickly as I felt that I didn't give myself a chance to truly find myself before moving into this relationship.
Currently I am finding us on two different paths completely, and on this path that I'm on, I feel as though I'm truly finding myself, or the real me is coming out. But because he's on a whole different path, we don't often get time together, therefore, he doesn't get many opportunities to see me grow as a person. He has his priorities of studies, which is high demand, and time consuming, and I too have my own priorities of studies and other commitments that is also time consuming.
For the last 5-6 weeks he has been at me about spending more time with him, and I have been guilty of this as I have recently just been wanting to spend time and have fun with the new friends I have made. However, I have a felt a strong disconnection in communication between us both, and I can't help but think this is a huge contributing factor as to why I am feeling distant from him and vice versa.
There are many contributing factors as to why I'm having doubts, but it has blurred the line so much that I don't even know where my feelings stand with him anymore. For example, last night, he wanted to have sex, and I just plain and simple didn't want too.
I am in denial about how I feel wanting to leave, but at the same time, I don't know if having this new chap (that I like) around is a contributing factor as to why my lines are blurred also. But I understand that you simply cannot fight chemistry.
So I'm looking for some advice ladies. There's so much more to this story than what I've stated, but that'll make this a novel.
Please let me know what you think.
Yours sincerely,
Girl who feels stuck xox
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