The moment you sit outside your back door smoking while you listen to the sounds of the out doors feeling heart broken and lonely. The moment you realize you've felt this way for a while. When you realize your other half would rather do anything other than be with you. As you take a drag and tears fall down your face because you feel unwanted, unloved. You look up at the night sky and ask God "why?". In that moment you feel helpless. Like you've lost everything you've worked for. A marriage going down hill. Every word spoken on your wedding day was it all a lie? The moment you feel like the vows meant nothing. When all you want is to spend one whole day with your husband. One day like it use to be. Just one day of laughing and joking but those days seem long gone. The moment you realize the only time you'll have with him is when he's a sleep in the bed. The moment you realize his " I love yous" are cold and dry. The moment you sit and wonder "has he fallen out of love with me? What have I done that was so horrible he doesnt want to be with me?" In those moment you lost all hope. In these moment you die a little in side. You take your last drag of your cigarette and wipe away your tears. You return to a house with just you and your daughter because your husband is gone, but then again what else is new? The moment you text or call him and 3 hours later still no reply. In this moment you wonder "what am I suppose to do?" In this moment you become numb and the thoughts slowly fade away as you close your eyes to goto sleep in an empty bed made for two it lays only you.