So, I started passing the tissue of our baby yesterday. Went in for a sonogram today and was told there isn't much lining left for me to shed, should be over soon. The doc suggested we wait a full cycle before we try again. I kinda got into an argument with her (not my normal doc....and BTW she came in to do my sonogram and she's pregnant! UGH!) Anyways, I'm 40. I feel like I don't have an extra month to just wait. I feel like we need to take advantage of every single cycle!

Anyways, up until today I was ok. I accepted the pregnancy was invalid and we would try again. However as I was watching the sonogram I was waiting and hoping she would say, "oh I see something, it was just breakthrough bleeding and you are still pregnant". But that didn't happen.....she confirmed the miscarriage and I lost it! I never knew what women who miscarried went through. Until now.....this is horrible. Heart wrenching. Devastating. And to top it all off, my husband had to find out on Father's Day that we lost our miracle.

I know this post is long and I'm all over the place but I don't know where else to turn to get this all out.

I then had to get my hcg checked today and have to get them checked again next week. Doc wants us to at least wait til my hcg is below 5 to try again.

I got a doc note to be out of work til next week Monday. I honestly just feel like sitting on my couch and do nothing for the rest of the week.

Can anyone else relate?