Venting

I can't wait until that time comes where I take a test and a bfp appears in the 3 minute time frame then I'll know its real we want this so bad.I'm stuck between trying and not trying. People say if you try to hard it won't happen but when I don't try it don't happen. Preconception appt next week I hope I ovulated already if not these next 3 months are going to be my time!!!!!!!