Relationship

I've been with this man for 3 years & going. I just broke it off this morning. Didn't hug him or tell him how much I loved him. I just left I've never had a real first love before. So this will be a challenge. But after going to see him. He was making me cry for 2 days literally it was hell. My eyes are swollen & haven't slept or ate within that period. Very unhealthy relationship. So you could defiantly say breaking it off was the right thing to do. I have one question for you guys. Some advice would help to 👌🏼 I don't know if I should block his number. Everyone says I should probably cause it would make things easier. & I wouldn't have to read all his apologies along with telling me it was my fault. Like I basically deserved it. But anyways what if he's hurt& he can't get a hold of me ? Idk what I should do to make this easier on myself.