Okay I'm 20 years old and I'm in hair school, specifically I go to Paul Mitchell. Recently I have lost so much motivation to even go to school (plus I've been out of school for a week now because of wisdom teeth surgery) but I can't find any motivation to keep going. I just wanna enjoy life and summer with my love and family. I don't wanna miss all of summer because I have school Tuesday through Saturday 9am until 5pm. I want freedom. I wanna enjoy everything life has. But I feel so held down. I feel like I am not able to do what I want in life because school won't allow it. They go by hours at school. And if you miss over 180 you have to pay more. Which I am over now. Which adds more stress. And I have to be above 80% in attendance when I hit 900 hours or I lose all my financial aid. I would love to switch to nights but it would be so different and I have anxiety around new people. So I wouldn't know anyone. But it'd be easier on me going Monday through Thursday. I'm so overly stressed and trying to recover from surgery. I have no guidance. I just have rules. And I feel if I don't follow them I'm a failure and will make nothing of my life. 

I am just way beyond stressed.