This is my first baby and it seems like everything around me is falling apart. No one is happy im having the baby. It seems more of a burden or disappointment to everyone that knows. . Disappointed i waited this long (35) and im not married... mad cause they didnt want more kids. Family dosnt like him. Or bad timing...or jealous other kids. . Just any way you look at it No one really has a positive outlook on this. My relationship is falling apart. I just lost my mom. I going thru alot of emotions very much alone. .. i still got a full time job and a my little brother im raising to think about and i cant wrap my mind around any of it. . I waited this long to have the right type of situation to start a family and it seems like all ima have is a baby. Dont get me wrong IM EXCITED. . . Just not what i signed up for or ever imagined for myself.. sorry for the rant.