My best friend

I had a best friend. He was the greatest and always there for me. And we were super comfortable around each other, super close, super open, and we just really enjoyed eachother. Well we said hey our sex drives are crazy and we're friends so let's help eachother out. Well it seemed intimate in bed. I mean it didn't feel like a Fwb type of deal. It meant more( read my previous post) and I mean we both saw that he was more open with me than anyone. And he was so comfortable with me that he got over his fear of kissing with tongue (poor guy is freaking 19 lol) and he saw he was really letting me in and when he saw that he panicked cus he didn't wanna be comfortable with that. He was afraid I'd hurt him or he'd hurt me. He doesn't wanna risk losing me and this awesome friend dynamic we have but we can't deny we fell for eachother. We did. But. I was pushed out before I could even be inside long enough to settle. So I'm on the outside, hoping he won't be afraid anymore and open the door for me again. I have learned that the greatest risk is to risk nothing at all. He doesn't wanna risk our friendship. So sex is now off the table