Scared about delivery

This will be baby number 4, forth c section and I'm 27, it's tripping me out

my last c section everything hurt the iv the epidural and the recovery

I'm really good with pain management but it was no joke the third time

I'm feeling like I'm a bleed out on the table because my doc said I had soo much scar tissue so I wanted to try for a vbac against doctors orders but she said my baby could die oh lord what am I gone do!!!!

I wonder how many mothers were told that they had so much scar tissue that they should just tie there tubes?