The jealousy is ruining me

Melissa • Mother of 1 two year old 🌈 and 4 👼🏻 🌈 #2 due 12/23/19
Everyone I know is pregnant... Not an over exaggeration.  I am thrilled, especially for the ones who've been trying, but my jealousy is ruining me.  I'm on cycle 5 ttc after my missed miscarriage and d&c in December last year.  My angel baby's due date is approaching and all I want is those two pink lines... So desperate. 
Af showed up yesterday, yet another cycle with preseed, acupuncture, vitamins, opks... Wasted.  I feel like giving up... We're starting to lose friends because we don't have kids.  I'm just so over all this trying. 
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