I am the most awkward person ever and therefore have never had a boyfriend

Anybody else like this? 😂😂 I'm 17 and I've never had a boyfriend. It's not like I can't, it's more like I won't. I hate putting myself out there and talking to new people because I'm so goddamned shy. And whenever guys try and message me or talk to me I just get really awkward and kind of push them aside. I mean I'm fine being single, but I haven't even had my first kiss and I feel like I'm missing out on my teen years.Â