Losing two boys in your second and third trimesters makes you question God and what he has in store for you. Why would God take your children away from you when he allowed you to get pregnant in the first place? People say your a mother when you give birth. But their wrong. A woman becomes a mother the mother the moment she finds out she's pregnant. I did give birth to my first boy. He wasn't breathing. Than his heart stopped not even a minute after he came into the world. My second was lost after I had a grandma seizure. I am a mother of two angels. My fiancé and I have been TTC since our second loss. Which was a year and a half ago. And today my faith was tested once again. I was almost 100% sure this was it. The moment we have been praying for. I had every symptom! I was even late! But God said it wasn't our time. Not just yet. So we remain praying and keeping our faith. God knows what he's doing.