I feel so anxious waiting on my first ultrasound. This is my first pregnancy since my mmc. I'm so nervous that I'm going to go in for my ultrasound and there won't be a baby. Or there will be and it will die in a few weeks just like my first baby did. I'm so sad that I won't let myself get over the moon excited for this pregnancy because I'm protecting myself...I'm trying to think positive. I even try referring to the future like "when the baby come" but deep down I feel like I'm holding my breathe just waiting for my heart to get ripped out of my chest again..