It's the most difficult, time consuming, frustrating thing I have probably ever done. 

At first my baby was doing great (at the hospital when I had a lactation consultant to help of course). Then we get home and the it became this emotional roller coaster of me feeling terrible because I didn't have the time to dedicate to sitting & nursing him all day. I own a business and had to get back to work fairly quickly so after having a lactation consultant come to my house we decided on a plan. My babe also wasn't gaining any weight, which is normal, but he actually lost more even after his first week appointment. When the pediatrician said to supplement with formula I cried. I cried when I gave him that first bottle. But slowly, as he started filling out more and gained the weight back fairly quickly I felt better, and a sense of relief. I am now struggling because although I am pumping when I can, nursing him when I'm with him, I feel like it's a battle I am never going to win. He has been constipated for going on 3 weeks (cries from the pain, little hard nuggets, we have to help him poop). We have tried different formulas, currently on Parents Choice Sensitive (which is supposed to be like Similac). I know switching can also be the issue so while I feel like this isn't working, I'm scared to switch again. When I do breastfeed him, he falls asleep or is constantly de-latching from me or just acts restless. Of course one day, I fed him nothing but milk I had pumped and nursed him, he went #2 on his own and it wasn't hard. So here I am in tears, getting ready for work, and just pumped my 2oz feeling like a terrible mom because if I were pumping enough for him to eat, he maybe wouldn't be constipated. I don't know what the answer is, hopefully we will figure it out but I am sick of feeling like I am being judged by other moms when I have to pull out a bottle of formula in public. I am not any less of a mom. Trust me, every ounce of my emotions goes into that bottle of pumped breast milk. I'm not sure if I posted this seeking advice, to vent, or maybe let someone else struggling that they aren't alone.