Baby is 3wks old he still blames me

My baby is 3wks 1day he still blames me for being irresponsible and getting pregnant. I was on the pill it happened, I couldn't go through an abortion. I don't regret nothing my baby girl is a true blessing, he tells me I ruined his plans and career. He is 36yrs old he should be lucky I blessed him with our beautiful baby that his mom is head over hills crazy for. I never got any love or affection my whole pregnancy from him, and after the baby was born the same nothing last night he turns and grabs me asked me to give him oral😠 I guess I'm worthless only good for pleasure in his eyes