I would like to say that my adoption story is a pleasant one. I was placed for adoption at birth, placed in a loving foster home for less than a month, and then adopted very shortly after into my permanent home, which has been very loving. My family has always been upfront with me for as long as I can remember about the fact that I am adopted, so there were no nasty surprises and this fact of my life has always been a perfectly normal one to me.

There has always been a natural curiosity in me, but I had never pursued finding my biological family. In fact, the thought had not crossed my mind until I started to think about having my own family. I looked into it, but with my adoption being a closed one and there being extra hoops to jump through I decided to take my time and truly pursue it when I felt really unequivocally ready.

Now I am 14 weeks pregnant with my first child and I am stopping my pursuit for now because honestly, I want to focus on this one biological relation that I have here and now growing inside of me. The thought of finding my biological family now seems really overwhelming, plus I have been growing even closer with the family that I've grown up with my entire life and want to spend my time with them. After all, they are the ones who have been with me this entire time.

As far as my personal feelings about the pregnancy goes, I am so happy and excited to get to experience the miracle of birth firsthand. My whole life I felt rather removed from the whole situation and I feel like this is my chance to be let in on it. I am so excited to finally get to meet a biological relation and to see them grow before my eyes. I think this is something that some non-adoptees take for granted.

Anyways, I just thought I would share my own personal feelings and experiences on the matter and open this up for a discussion to anyone who is interested in it or anyone else who is going through this themselves.